I am learning to appreciate new things every day. Part of this is due to the fact that I am willing to explore new and different things than what I am used to. For instance, the natural coffee creamers I was preparing pretty much flat out sucked to be quite frank. So one day I decided that I would drink hot tea in the mornings and just cut out coffee all together. In doing this, I have found that I love tea and am trying out lots of different kinds. However that hankering for coffee still lingered. So once again I searched Pinterest looking for that perfect “clean” coffee creamer. People….it does not exist. So this morning I thought I am going to make a cup and just drink it black. Well the first drink had me thinking “ummmm no!” But I took a few more drinks and began to appreciate it for what it was and not what I thought it should be. I could actually taste the coffee and enjoy it without the creaminess and sweetness. Sometimes we get so stuck in our own ruts and bad habits that we can’t imagine anything else. I am learning to taste and appreciate things without all the extras. Last night we celebrated my dads 72nd birthday. We had grilled hamburgers. I laid mine on a bed of lettuce, tomato, onion, and avocado. NO BUN! I completely enjoyed it and then when cake time came around I felt the freedom to allow myself a slice. Moms Pistachio cake. YUMM! (The first refined sugar I have had in weeks) For me it is a victory that I can indulge in a piece of cake and not fall into the abyss of all my bad habits. I went to the doctors yesterday and my blood sugar was in the range considered “controlled diabetes” and therefore instead of returning in 3 months I have to go back in 6 months. I have to take each small victory as they come and look at the big picture everyday. One day I look forward to reaching my health goals. I will keep putting one foot in front of the other and next time I go to the doctors I hope to be able to go off some of my medications.
The other day I took my daughter to lunch. Now that my eating is so restricted it is difficult to find something that is both enjoyable and doesn’t derail me. We tried a place called Crushed Red Urban Bake and Chop Shop. They serve soups, salads, and pizzas all made from healthy quality foods. It was amazing! The picture above is my pesto shrimp and artichoke pizza. (The half I didn’t already consume) The entire pizza was 400 calories and sooo yummy! Hannah enjoyed her chipotle bbq chicken pizza as well. If you have one in your area I highly recommend it. We have to enjoy our food as well as fuel our bodies. I weigh daily as instructed by my doctor. I have to remind myself that the number is not necessarily a true reflection of my progress. If I get too caught up in what the scale says discouragement can creep up and the enemy takes full advantage. I have to take one step at a time and remind myself that if I just put one foot in front of the other, that like the turtle I just might win this race. So far I am down a little more than 20 pounds. While that might sound like a big number, in the whole scheme of things it is just a fraction of where I need to be. It won’t happen overnight; but I am determined. We all have things we are trying to accomplish. We must have the patience to persevere and put in the work it takes to win the race!