Inspirational Weightloss

How Kdramas and Andy Grammer gave me Fresh Eyes

So it has been awhile since I have posted and while my food journey is suffering there are other areas to healthy living. Relationships being one of them. I have known my husband since I was 19 years old and next year we will be celebrating our 25th year of marriage. By no means do we have a perfect relationship; but I can honestly say that we are closer than we have ever been. Slightly off topic is the fact that I have become a fan of Kdramas (Korean Tv shows). I have been reflecting what it is exactly that makes me appreciate them in spite of the fact that most people think I have gone nuts. This is what I have decided. First off they are just fun. The comedy that exists in them is just so funny. They can be pretty cheesy and fairytale-ish thus setting unrealistic expectations of romance if you don’t know better. However, the content is usually very clean in terms of what we see here in America and has an innocence that I appreciate. In Kdramas EVERYTHING is a big deal! Touching accidently, brushing hands, holding hands, and usually you get to the end of a series before there is even kissing. This got me thinking. In a relationship as long as the one I have been in it is easy to take the little things for granted. It can be easy to stop doing the little things. I feel like many relationships suffer and even end due to boredom and lack of excitement over each other. So as I have been watching these shows I began to think of being more intentional with the affection and appreciation that I show my husband. Does this mean I never disappoint him with my behavior and that he never disappoints me? Absolutely not. However I think we have both started appreciating each other more. Coincidently an Andy Grammer song has been playing over recent months called “Fresh Eyes”. At first I enjoyed it but didn’t pay much attention to the lyrics. As I became more intentional in my relationship I began to realize that this song was saying exactly what I was feeling toward my husband.

“So suddenly I’m in love with a stranger, I can’t believe he’s mine, Now all I see is you with fresh eyes

Appreciation, well, it comes and it goes, But, I’ll ride that wave with you, It’s human nature to miss what’s under your nose, ’til you, ’til you remind a fool

Maybe all of this is simple, My heart’s unconditional, yeah”

Through it all my husband and I are now in an “I love you” “I love you more” war and he is even enjoying some of my Korean tv. (He is especially a fan of the music haha) we text each other often just to say “I love you” or “I miss you”.

I was truly blessed when God chose my partner in marriage and life. Take a little extra care and insert some intentional effort into your relationship. You won’t regret it.

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Inspirational Weightloss

Appreciation and a Willing Attitude

I am learning to appreciate new things every day. Part of this is due to the fact that I am willing to explore new and different things than what I am used to. For instance, the natural coffee creamers I was preparing pretty much flat out sucked to be quite frank. So one day I decided that I would drink hot tea in the mornings and just cut out coffee all together. In doing this, I have found that I love tea and am trying out lots of different kinds. However that hankering for coffee still lingered. So once again I searched Pinterest looking for that perfect “clean” coffee creamer. People….it does not exist.  So this morning I thought I am going to make a cup and just drink it black. Well the first drink had me thinking “ummmm no!” But I took a few more drinks and began to appreciate it for what it was and not what I thought it should be. I could actually taste the coffee and enjoy it without the creaminess and sweetness. Sometimes we get so stuck in our own ruts and bad habits that we can’t imagine anything else. I am learning to taste and appreciate things without all the extras. Last night we celebrated my dads 72nd birthday. We had grilled hamburgers. I laid mine on a bed of lettuce, tomato, onion, and avocado. NO BUN! I completely enjoyed it and then when cake time came around I felt the freedom to allow myself a slice. Moms Pistachio cake. YUMM! (The first refined sugar I have had in weeks) For me it is a victory that I can indulge in a piece of cake and not fall into the abyss of all my bad habits. I went to the doctors yesterday and my blood sugar was in the range considered “controlled diabetes” and therefore instead of returning in 3 months I have to go back in 6 months. I have to take each small victory as they come and look at the big picture everyday. One day I look forward to reaching my health goals. I will keep putting one foot in front of the other and next time I go to the doctors I hope to be able to go off some of my medications.

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Slow and Steady (Wins the Race?)

The other day I took my daughter to lunch. Now that my eating is so restricted it is difficult to find something that is both enjoyable and doesn’t derail me. We tried a place called Crushed Red Urban Bake and Chop Shop. They serve soups, salads, and pizzas all made from healthy quality foods. It was amazing! The picture above is my pesto shrimp and artichoke pizza. (The half I didn’t already consume) The entire pizza was 400 calories and sooo  yummy! Hannah enjoyed her chipotle bbq chicken pizza as well. If you have one in your area I highly  recommend it. We have to enjoy our food as well as fuel our bodies. I weigh daily as instructed by my doctor. I have to remind myself that the number is not necessarily a true reflection of my progress. If I get too caught up in what the scale says discouragement can creep up and the enemy takes full advantage. I have to take one step at a time and remind myself that if I just put one foot in front of the other, that like the turtle I just might win this race. So far I am down a little more than 20 pounds. While that might sound like a big number, in the whole scheme of things it is just a fraction of where I need to be. It won’t happen overnight; but I am determined. We all have things we are trying to accomplish. We must have the patience to persevere and put in the work it takes to win the race!

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Limits

One of the most important things when trying to lose weight is learning limits. One of the most useful tools in the kitchen is the scale. It is easier to stay on track when you know exactly how much you should eat. This can apply to many areas of life. When I was in the workforce I always did best when I knew exactly what was expected of me. As children we are in great need of limits. That is what a parents role is. Teaching children what is expected of them so that they become respectful, productive, caring members of society. The world today is in such poor shape because so many are being raised to believe that they can and should be able to do what ever they want. In dieting, as in life, there are rules and boundaries and the better you are able to learn them the more successful you will be. I made spaghetti for dinner last night. I used whole wheat noodles, organic no sugar added spaghetti sauce, and grass fed beef. While there were no chemicals or refined sugars in my meal, it could still be highly caloric if I didn’t limit myself. I ate a modest serving and filled the rest of my plate with salad. When I was done, the temptation to fill my plate again was strong. I enjoyed the pasta so much. But, I took a minute to think about what I am trying to achieve and the fact that I truly was content with the amount I had already consumed and refrained. This morning I woke to a 2 pound drop. It is rewarding to stay within the limits.

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My New Journey

So, I don’t really know where to begin. At the beginning I guess. I have been overweight all of my adult (and teen) life. I would definitely describe myself as carb addicted. On March 1st we decided that next January we were going on a cruise. While not my first cruise, I decided that since we had lots of time to prepare I was going to feel better and be in better shape than on previous cruises. So right then and there I decided to go on a diet. Now, I am the queen of dieting. I know everything that I SHOULD do. Doing them is entirely different. So I started my usual calorie counting. I began at 279 pounds and I am only 5’2″. I can’t believe that I am actually putting that out into the internet world. I have always been an all or not at all dieter. Meaning, that I would do amazing if I started cold turkey and would continue to do well until I slipped. And then it was over. So I really worked on letting myself cheat occasionally and then refusing to let it end there. I was actually successful. Now one thing about me is when I diet I become obsessed. Reading anything I can get my hands on, searching the internet etc. I came across a book while out shopping one day called The Doctor’s Diet by Dr. Travis Stork of the Doctors show. While not following the diet exactly as written, I read it from cover to cover. I can’t say that I learned anything I shouldn’t have already know; but seeing it in print right before my eyes was a wake up call. It talks about how we as Americans are killing ourselves by how we eat. Many of the health problems that were discussed I am already taking medication for. My list of health problems are as follows: rapid heartbeat, obesity(obviously), uncontrolled type 2 diabetes with kidney complications, high blood pressure, and high cholesterol. By this time my weight was down to 265. I decided that my new goal was to stop counting calories and eat in a way that could potentially eliminate all of the medications that I am on. I started slowly. First I bought all natural peanut butter. You know, that annoying kind with all the oil on top that you have to stir? Guess what! I love it! I began checking labels and looking for hidden processed sugars and chemicals. One of the hardest things is trying to find a replacement for coffee creamer! I have made a couple of recipes that I found on Pinterest. They are not great. But I continue to drink them and they get better everyday. The creamers I used before while sugar free (I switched when diagnosed with diabetes) are full of chemicals. I have stopped drinking Diet Pepsi and switched to La Croix sparkling water. The first can I tried made me want to gag. But I just kept drinking it and am now really enjoying it. I have decided to document this journey for myself and others. Also as a way of being accountable to myself. So, I am several days without processed sugar and chemicals and I have noticed a couple of things. I am completely satisfied after eating a meal of normal portion sizes. I am not thinking about what I can’t have, more what I can. Also, I have only lost 1 pound this week. I am currently 264 pounds. I know that by not counting calories and using artificial sweeteners, and  products full of chemicals designed to trick dieters into thinking we are getting our sweets, and fueling my body in a way that will lower my blood sugar there is no way I won’t lose weight. So follow along this great new journey with me! The picture above is some banana muffins I made in the blender. They have oats, eggs, bananas, honey, and salt, baking powder and baking soda in them. I added blueberries and walnut. They were awesome! Better yet, everyone in the house liked them. That is saying a lot!!

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